My 2009's wishlist

It's just 3 more days to the brand new year. Actually, it is a new year today in Muslim calendar. So before I go to 2009 wishlist, let me list down things that I have accomplished this yr:

1) Signed up for salsa class - though I just did it half way and have completely stopped now ehehe.
2) Back to swimming schedule
3) Have put on some weight - am 49kg now, only 1kg to my ideal weight, 50!
4) Got promoted at work

2009's wishlist

1) Move to oversea - either to study/work
2) Enrol for tennis lesson
3) Enrol for ballroom dancing class (it's a social dance and easier than salsa)
4) Erm... slim down my tummy (ehehe yes am gonna do something about it ;)

I guess that's all. My 2008's experience has taught me to be more realistic about things. The first in the list is the biggest however and it would take a lot of efforts to get there. I know it will come true. I just know :)

So with that, Selamat Tahun Baru 1430 Hijriah and Happy New Year 2009 folks!

I am proud to say that...

Didn't mean it in disrespectful way but I can finally sing this song!! Phew :-))

Over You - Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming
I should've started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you

My best friend's wedding

That's my best friend, Linda a.k.a my partner in crime when we were in college :) Isn't she lovely? The wedding was sometime in July but I didnt get the photos until last week.. so here they are...

At their solemnization ceremony in Masjid Wilayah, KL..

*smoochies*

Lessons I learnt

First of all, i really am not trying to prove any point here.. just to share what i have learned/gained in this blessing month of Ramadhan.. there were things that I wished to change at the beginning of Ramadhan and alhamdulillah I think I've seen the light. so, am writing this down, mostly to remind myself:

1) Be thankful - be thankful for whatever things you have now, your job, the air you breath, the bed you sleep on.. cos wealth won't come to you until you are thankful for the state you're in.
2) Learn to let go - you can't find happiness if you won't let go. Let go of the resentment. Hold nothing against people who have hurt you.
3) Forgive and forget - easier said than done...but believe me, if only you know -this is the most powerful feeling that would set you free.
4) Be happy for others - when you pray for other people's happiness, the malaikat will pray for you too.. so the way I look at it, whatever things you wish for people, will be wished back to you. So be nice in your prayers, only wish people well :)
5) Free yourself from insecurity - one thing for sure, you only have yourself to hurt with this bad trait of character. do the right thing, learn to love yourself and the love will come to you and trust in God that everything is taken care of. it frees your mind from insecurity (no one will ever escape His final court anyway) - i cant stress this enough as i learnt it the hard way.
6) Have faith in God - believe that He loves you.. so learn to redha for whatever things that happened in your life, be it good or bad... cos it is definitely for your betterment. (in my case, i am redha and believe He has a better plan for me)

My breakup is definitely a turning point for me, especially in my characters. it's a blessing in disguise... my life has been a long and winding roads but i guess i won't change any of that cos it makes me who I am today.. afterall, how am i supposed to tell my kids and instill good values in them if i dun really understand those? at least i have a great love story (where I played a Romeo in it LOL) & a bunch of life experience to share with my kids and grandchildrens (alright dream on, i dun even have a bf yet LOL).

Well isn't life a wonderful experience? I cant wait to explore more.. far & beyond.. to travel around the world and be mesmerized by God's great creatures and who knows I'll find love in unexpected places... ah.. wonderful feeling even when am just imagining it :)

God, please please please make my dreams come true.. :)

Say (All I Need)

Brilliant lyrics...

Say (All I Need) by One Republic

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?

Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it (Better than you had it)

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pye5Uh6XqZc

Nice Dress!

First of all, i wasn't referring to Jim Carrey's crazy act in swimsuit. Rather, the dress that his girlfriend is wearing in the pic!! so beautiful... i like the cutting, the color.. am so gonna get one for myself too! it would be perfect for my beach holiday! ;)

Courtesy pic from yahoo : http://omg.yahoo.com/photos/what-were-they-thinking/2105?nc

Anyways, am gonna spend the weekend working again. It's gonna be my last firewall upgrade for this year. Wish me luck.. Once am done with this firewall enhancement project, i promise will go for holiday and enjoy myself! nothing beats hanging out with my girls... cant wait to go to the beach - walking along the beach or reading my books while listening to Jason Marz's latest single - I Am Yours.. the melody is just nice for beach holiday.. i always feel like being in some island everytime listening to the song. told you, am a dreamer! ;)

Also my best friend, Linda will officially become someone's wife this Sunday. i cant say how happy i am for her.. hope i won't cry that day cos this is what i always wanted for her after both her parents passed away.

am sure its gonna a great weekend like always... and it will be more meaningful with linda's nikah ceremony and if my firewall upgrade goes smoothly as planned (since the servers are in India and I have to do it remotely). wish me luck...

and congrats Dot (thats what I call Linda) am so proud of you! you're finally gonna be walking down the aisle :)

Daughtry is coming to Malaysia!

Here are the details:

Date: July 26, 2008
Location: KL
Event: Sony Ericsson Traffic Jam

http://www.daughtryofficial.com/

But the bummer thing is that the tickets are not for sale. To obtain the tickets we need to purchase the selected Sony Ericsson Walkman phones - W350, W580 & W910 and will receive a pair of tickets for free. Hope they will change their mind though cos the phone is going to cost me RM650! :s

I finally got it...

Few weeks ago, I was surprised to receive an email from the receptionist, saying I received a parcel and asked me to get it from her. It was very unexpected. It turned out to be a book titled 'Dont be sad' written by a muslim author, 'Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni.

On the first page of the book it says,

Specially to my dearest Naida,
Hope you find what you're looking for..

- Alin (5/6/2008)

I was flattered that I cried. I cant believe that I have real friends out there who cares a great deal about me. It was really unexpected. I remembered she asked me for my office address and said she was gonna send me something before I left to the UK and since I wont be leaving until December, it never occurred to me it was from her.

Due to my busy schedule, I took me almost a month to finish the book. I love every bit of it and actually sad that i was gonna finish reading the book.. it inspired me and still is..

Taken from the book;

"We, humankind, brood over what we dont own and we dont thank God for what we do own. We always dwell on the tragic and dark side of our lives, and we dont look at the brighter side of our existence. We rue over what is missing in our lives and we are not happy with what is there"

True indeed. It made me feel really bad actually.. what am I complaining, i have a nice bed to sleep on every night, a place to go home to, warm bread and hot drink, a job that i love, a supportive family and great friends around me.

So I finally got it ; happiness is a state of mind and always always be thankful for what you have.

And yes Alin, I've found what am looking for. Thanks hon.. *hugs*

Made of Honor (2008)

Here's the thing - I love Patrick Dempsey (oh his sexy eyes!) and being a dreamer, I love chic flicks movies to the core but I gotta say this... the movie sucks! I enjoyed Kungfu Panda thousand times than this one (sorry Patrick.. though I loved the kissing part... well I actually thought he was pretty good at it) ;)

Anyways I had a great week despite being awfully busy. Alhamdulillah I managed to develop the pilot system for firewall (that is after working long crazy hours!) so I get some room to breath now... guess am back to my swimming schedule :) and hanging out with my girls!

I look forward to the weekend! I gotta send my younger brother to the college registration this Sat.. Bummer! Guess gotta cancel all my plans that day.. erm am still thinking whether or not i should come for the birthday party this Sat nite... my girls said i should give it a go.. i dont know.. maybe its not a bad idea afterall to socialize more... well lets see how my mood is that day.

Anyways, I better hit the sack. Meeting one of my good friends tomorrow. He's a senior manager in Petronas now so am gonna claim for a nice meal huhu.. oh well he said the view was terrific there.. and I wasnt referring to the skyline view from the office, alright..? I guess being 40 doesnt change a man, huh ;) men - they never fail to amaze me ;)

Good night.

She's just brilliant..

i almost cried listening to her singing... even Simon Cowell was impressed by her & guess what..she was only 6 when she did this! .. one of the 'Britain's Got Talent 2007' finalists!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWNoiVrJDsE&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jEXl5OafdXo&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0GEGvBt9m4&feature=related

Little chat..

Had this conversation with one of my good friends in the US.

Me : hey mick! good morning..
Mick : good morning Wan!
Mick : hey, Thanks for making the arrangements for the upgrades!
Me : no probs :)
Me : hey am getting access denied for nrt
Mick : really? are you using putty?
Me : yeah
Mick : it's same password for both accounts
Me : really? it thought it was a different password. thanks!
Mick : no problem. yeah, there are several passwords in APJ
Mick : you scared me, I thought something was wrong.
Me : sorry :)
Mick : that's OK, it was like a mini workout - it got my heart rate up for a few minutes.
Mick : so they are going to activate the DRAC!
Me : yeah but the command didn't work for me
Me : or simply something is wrong with me today (after my friend called and said she ran into my ex today and he looked so happy)
Mick : don't let that bother you
Mick : you need to think about yourself
Mick : there's a million other reason why he could have looked happy, none of which have anything to do with the fact that you guys aren't together anymore.
Mick : maybe he just found some money, or saved a bunch of children from a burning bus.
Me : you're so rational
Mick : in all of the girl movies my wife makes me watch - any time a couple break up the girl spends too much time worrying about what the guy is doing and not enough time doing what makes her happy or looking for Mr. Right
Mick : and you should smack your friend for telling you about how he looked.
Mick : tell her I said that.
Me : lol... yeah she shouldnt have told me. i thought i was handling it alright..
Mick : next time say "work with me here!"
Mick : you are handling it very well
Mick : I haven't read a story on Yahoo! - Odd News about a young lady in KL...
Mick : who ran over her ex, or threw him out of a window, or poisoned him.
Me : you did not mean that! were u referring to me? :))
Mick : kinda - you haven't done any of those things. You seem to be dealing with this very well.
Me : i hope so.. its been tough though
Me : so hey i ran the command but.. [root@KEN****admin]# racadm getniccfgbash: racadm: command not found
Mick : I know. I never broke off an engagement but I can imagine it's 100 times worse than a normal relationship.
Mick : give me a few minutes to check with support. Maybe this kernel has a different utility for the DRAC card.
Me : ok... hey, thanks for everything.. you've been a great friend
Mick : you're welcome. I wish you were closer so we could discuss this over a tripple scoop of Ice Cream.

The song that keeps playing in my head...

Am so crazy with Sara Bareillas's Love Song.... It keeps playing in my head over and over again! Even my sister loves it... ;) Check out the song here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SYXbz7Pu1i0

4 hours to go..

so this is by far, the worst birthday i ever had in my life.. and i gotta say the calls, text messages from friends and family really made me sad.. i received too many calls and text messages that i didnt even bother to pick up or read. these people must think that its one of the happiest days in my life.. but they have no idea.. and i dont blame them...

so, 4 hours to go and counting. one thing for sure, being 27 makes me stronger than ever. i can still smile in tears and no one, no one could ever bring me down.. :)

have a great weekend.

For once..

I don't know what am feeling..

Sad, angry, dissapointed?

I feel like crying but am too mad to cry, you know what i mean? Sigh..

And I've been listening to Eric Clapton's - 'Change the World' for a hundred times.. It has a calming effect on me somewhat... but it doesnt heal the pain..

Its 3.40am... I cant sleep but if I dont, I wont look good in the new dress tomorrow.

Sigh.. life's a pain in the butt.. and am 27 today with no warm fuzzy hugs to go home to..

Anyone buying me this?? Plsss....!!

I want this for my birthday!! It's called 'Diorshow Powder', my preferred color is No. 003 Catwalk Pink. It's a loose powder that combines blusher and luminizer in one.

I spent a fortune last month - bought 3 Dior products (it comes with free make-up) and a dress.. a dress that burnt a hole in my pocket, which altogether cost me almost RM1500.. am not a shopaholic.. its just that sometimes its so hard to resist something that is sooo pretty. anyway, I can't afford to buy the blusher now, not in 2 months though its just RM130!

:( guess i have to wait till March..

I Did a Bad Thing

I really like the novel and here's the synopsis:

Sarah Roberts used to be good.

Then she did something bad. Very bad.

Now, seven years later, she’s trying to make up for her past by leading a respectable life, working as a local newspaper reporter and living with her saintly boyfriend Jonathan. She has no intention of ever doing a bad thing again.

Until Nick walks back into her life.

And suddenly, what’s good and bad aren’t so clear to Sarah any more.

I DID A BAD THING is dark, funny, wicked and true. Because haven’t we all got a guilty secret?

Guess what - I was looking for other novels written by the author.. but unfortunately, this is the first novel she wrote. and yeah being a 'skema' person i am, i wrote an email to Linda Green and asking about her up-coming novel and here's her reply:

Hi Nadia,

Thanks for getting in touch and I'm so glad you enjoyed my novel.

It's great to get feedback from readers - especially those as far away as Kuala Lumpar!

I'm half way through the next novel, similar mix of humour and darker stuff I hope. This time the heroine is a local TV news reporter and a single mum. It's provisionally titled The 'And Finally' Girl and should be published in hardback/export edition in November 08 and paperback April 09, if I get a move on, that is!

Thanks again.

Best Wishes,

Linda Green

BTW, i dun care she called me Nadia instead of Naida.. and spelled Kuala Lumpur wrongly! am just glad she replied ;) guess there's still a kid in me..